This Week: Starting from Love

This week starts off wobbly.

Last week gutted me, emptied me out in all the quiet ways that don't show. And instead of softening, I hardened. That's my pattern. My go-to defense mode. Softening takes energy, and I usually save it for my kids. But the fact is hardening costs energy too, a different kind perhaps, the kind that drains you while pretending to protect you.

Now I'm sitting with the truth that the work of regulation, of trying to come back to myself from a hardened place, can be more exhausting than the chaos ever was. It's strange how much effort peace can take. And how it's never the same approach or the same time frame to get to where I need to be.

So this week, I'm not chasing calm. I'm restarting from love.

Not fighting myself, not fixing anyone, just trying to stay in the warm peace that love makes possible. And although I can already feel that peace fraying at the edges, I breathe. I come back to the moment. I trust the softness, even when it feels thin.

Maybe from there, I can catch myself and regulate, refocus, to move again from a place that's real and toward the place I want to go.

This week I'll be posting insights on regulation and refocus from the King Tide Reset Cycle.

Looking forward to sharing this content with you!